A good end to a bad month

All in all, it has not been a great month results wise and I think the reason for that has been partly to do with me playing less and less poker and being more game selective.

Back in 2002 and 2003 I was putting in around 60 hours a week playing online poker and this led to serious burnout. Now I spread my time inbetween playing, coaching and writing these days.

But I had one huge tremendous session in the 25-50 game although I got lucky but Jesus….can anyone deny me that after my week. I also had a couple of good sessions in the PLO and won around $2800 as well as a $1750 win in a 10-20 NL and a $650 win in a 10-20 Limit game.

But I lost $12 in the 100K Challenge and my bankroll stands at $978! I was down to around $600 yesterday and was facing an horrendous loss. But I managed to pull it around and left with only a $12 loss which was a great comeback.

But my biggest problem is motivation….I was afraid of this at the outset. If I could have got off to a tremendous start then my confidence and desire would have been high and given me incentive to carry on. But I have mentally almost chalked off the £3500 and now it is starting to bother me that I am wasting my time and could be in bigger and better games rather than trying to prove something silly.

Maybe I should have gone for $50,000 instead of $100,000, maybe I should have played PLO instead of NLH but that is too late now, I am stuck with it. I am thinking of bending the rules a bit although there is nothing to say that I cannot. If I get to say $1500 then I will have a crack at 1-2 with that $500 surplus rather than wait until I get to $2000 as I planned.

There is nothing down in writing so I can do this and if I get lucky then who knows.

See ya soon

The Dean